Do as said.

Sometimes the sky may want you to feel nothing but emptiness, dispair, sadness. You should pay attention, do as they say, then let the sun fill yout hear and be happy.

Am I happy?

I heard myself saying yes, I heard myself saying I was happy, I felt myself that way. Then I woke up.
Or did I go to sleep? What is the difference?
I'm sure of being happy and unhappy, of enjoying shallow cuts or hiding them confused. I'm aware of both realities.
But which is the real one?
Why am I so sure of something that I'm not sure at all if it exists?

which one is right?
Which one won't hurt you?
Which one will I regret less?

Staying still, concious at night of the gloomyness, concious at day of the sillyness of my mood.
But so unfocused in the real thing.

So extremely painful...

Shapeless Heart

With a shapeless heart I love. It pains, it cries, but it light up my day until it's dark.
With a shapeless heart I stand. Running over other's feelings just to be right.
With a shapeless heart I fight. Laughing at day, crying at night.
With a shapeless heart I live two lives, never knowing which is real, wich is lie.
With a shapeless heart I look into your eyes.
With a shapeless heart I see mirrors in those tears.
With a shapeless heart I tie myself until death tear me apart.

Bleeding

Bizarre world
Lies contempting me
Erradicated sorrow, by
Evaporating pain
Did you think I was cold?
I never intented it to be wrong
Never even tried to succeed
Gained the sadness as I fell.

Training

Trying hard
Running fast through it
Ascending the mountains
In a desesperated state
Needing air
In need of pain
Needing to be strong
Growing strong

Luminiscence

Lost in delirium
Undefined through your
Mirror,
Incandescence feels like, it
Never did before
I see the fire
Standing
Cautious
Entertaining the air
Noise behind a velvet
Courtains of dark
Elements, buried hard.

Underlined

Unknown feeling rushing through me
Never thought that you
Dressed up in fear, would be
Ever like this...
Ropes, dancing with me
Lies, stopping your thinking.
Inside I know,
Now is the time the pain will
Evaporate, and thus
Difficulties like this will die.

Situation

I promised not to be bothered when I hear it.
I promised no to rely on them my heart.
I promised not to listen to your words truly.
I promised not to cry.

Still

I am bothered.
I rely to them my heart.
I listen to your words truly.
I am hurted and I cry.

Don't you worry

I'll be fine.
I'll carry my own sorrow.
I'll be deaf.
I'll be alright.
And I'll be...

Sleepless

A dog.

-Nothing complicated, a dog maybe, could you mummy?
-okay- said the woman, with a sight invading her voice.- but you'll have to take care of it, ok?
The little boy's eyes were shinning because of his excitement.
-really?
-Yes, but we'll keep it away form the neighbors
-That's fine :3

A dog. At his nine years old, all he could remember was wanting a dof for christmas. He wanted it so badly, he had gotten better marks at school.

But that's all he remembered. He doesn't know what happened after that. He never knew it, he never even knew what happened to his mother after that.

A dog. For a while, he blamed himself. If he wouldn't have asked his mother for a dog so badlly, she would still be alive.

But things weren't that way. That's all he remembers. He still had that awfal nightmares, where a giant dog was eating his mother, in a slightly comimc way, with a fork and a knife cutting her slowly, blood everywhere, and a mirror in fornt of the table..

At his 29, he still wouldn't get it... he had had many dogs, in such a long period of time. but all of them died misteriously.

That was his life, dogs and mothers, all he ever loved...

He still woulnd't get it. even if he spent half an hour looking himself at the mirror everyday.

And nothing could make him feel better, everyone he knew, he liked, had left him alone.

At his almost 30, no girl had taken him seriously. At his 30, he still, couldn't get why they got away so mad at him, when everything was going alright.

The mirror waved him as saying "hello", and comprehension dawned in him.

It was him all this time. him with a knife, him with a gun, him, with a bullet in his brain.

There is something wrong

Today I woke, late again
Hot morning
Even if the
Rain keeps falling
Everything is blurry
Induced euphoria
Soporific state
Something is wrong
Otherwise this butterfly wouldn't be
Mesmerizing my sounds
Each step I take, I
Take it wrong
High in my mind
Ilighted by despair
Noon comes again
Grinning to me
Whispering slowly
Rough feelings, I'm feeling
Outside, my head
Never thought I would
Grew old this late.

Mesmerize

Kiss me while you burn my wings
killing my freedom desires
I and I see you
I'm stunned, I can not stand it
I'm paralized
I feel the heat
and my dreams running away,
but theres nothing I can do
but close my eyes
and mesmerize myself
convince me once again
it's ok
it's ok
take me slowly and stab my soul

Make myself repeat these words
as the clock, slower once more,
going in circles
hypnotizes me
mesmerizes me
and my blood turns to nothing

kill me softly
and I'll convince myself
it's ok
it's ok

Send me far away
and tie me up
so I can never come back
so I can never go far
and I get to know you through my eyes

And I'll repeat for ever
it's ok
it's ok
as you drown me in that tub

it's ok
it's ok
as you look at me

it's ok
it's ok
so shallow

it's ok
it's ok
I'm forgetable

pw6 pt2

Lies in my face, as the paceful night lights me up.
There's nothing else here, I'm empty, I'm fading as always...
Can you even hear me?
of course you can't
you are blind

I hear only whispers.
Silence surrounds me, free me, let me die.

pw5

Feed my stomach stones
shiny, cold and blue
so I can get intoxicated

My skin becoming blue
sick, sad, cool
hair in dusk like feathery gray

Nails to black
eyes turning off
torns growing in my fingers

Vines are my hair
as dark etes eat my feet
I can feel
my heart fading

Stunning bright
are my eyes
as I keep melting away

Dots are my sight
pointy things my sighs
what I desire
switch turned on to mesmerize

Para que lado va el sentido?

Like two eyes ........................Like three heads..........Like four brains
Turned off.............................Thinking together.........Electrified
Blinding everything.................Of us..........................Static full of pain
Just because..........................Of whatever.................And nothing else

Like two wings.........................Like three birds...........Like four feathers
Moving, synchronized...............Flying, Soaring............Falling, detached
Searching................................Feeling it................Crowned by despair
Their way up...........................The wind burning them...Soaring slowly

Like two hands........................Like three fingers........Like four wrists
Waving..................................Alone..................Identifying their space
For you to recognize them........Because of others........Lost again
For you to hold them up.........Hidden in the dark.....So them won't faint

Like two ears..........................Like three sounds.........Like four songs
Listening to.................A systematic echoe.......Comming from the radio
You.................................Calling........................Without being mixed
Screaming to get my attention..Lost words way too far..Away from the rainbow

Like two lips.........................Like three teeth........Like four tongues
Like mine............................White and solid............Bited
Whispering you....................In a useless mouth......Shut and quiet
To kill me............................Scared.........................Still in peace

Common Strangers

They were trying to fit in, though they weren't even close to it.
Putting human parts together to get a body.
Hurry up, Hurry up. The others were almost there.
The strange looking creatures, akwardly moving, were almost drowned in despair.
Give me that hand. Here you go. Hurry up, hurry up!. I need an eye.. here, here, do we look like them???
Comic but sad, they were like everyone, killing themselves to be like the rest.