Mesmerized

As cowardly as the one who uses alcohol and drugs,
I keep forgetting to peace my mind,
my eternal friend
the one who never betrays me
and just by being here hurts more than anything,

why would I want to remember?
what I play is Present,
as present as the fact that as you read this lines they're already Past.

(so far when you're just next to me)

I don't want to remember.
I'm useful this way,
without the gloomyness in my eyes.
without the blurryness...

(I can actually hear you)

I don't want me back
when now happyness is all I have.